Dear Lil brOtHer

Today is my little brO birthday ...

It should be a very happy day for him ...

But i dont think he could forget what had happen on the day he should celebrate his birthday with us ...

With me .. with his sister .. lil brother .. mom and dad ...

With smile on his face .. joy .. and happiness ...

Just like we did every year ...

Just as what a birthday boy should be ..

Unfortunately ... it turns to be his nightmare ever ...

So do i ...

Just because of this one person ...

Remember ..

When you were just about 5 years old ...

We go to school together ...

I hold ur hand ...

You walk beside me ...

So that no one could disturb you ...

So that no one could bully you ..

Because you know ... your sis such a great fighter ...

Remember ...

When there's one time when one of the kids tried to punch you ...

I was there ready to protect you ...

The kids ran away when they saw me coming ... haha

Such an innocent little child you are ...

So since the day mom saw me in fight because of you  ...

She want me to promise .. to protect you .. to lead you .. wherever you are ..

Its hurt me ...

I should done better than this ...

But i didn't ...

I failed ...

I couldn't help you ...

I just watched you did the same mistake again and again...

And its hurt me badly ...

Frustrated ...

All the time ...

I thought u will be ok ...

Without me to lead you ...

So i let go off ur hand ...

I failed to fulfill my job ..

My promise ...

My responsibility ...

How could i let go off ur hand ...

How could i think u will be alright without me to scold you evertime you did stupid mistake ..

Lil brO ..

Whatever happen ... happen for a reasons ..

And there's a lesson u should learn from it ...

Dont take it easy ...

Take responsibility ...

Learn to be mature ..

As one day ..

When my time comes ..

I could no longer be with you ...
We can't be there all the time just to catch you whenever you fall down ...

But .. i would love you to know ..
Whatever happen ... in the end ..
I still love you ...
We love you ...
And it never ever gonna fade away ...